For the Sake of Matrimony

I'm not going to get married unless it makes me a better person.

As selfish as it sounds . . .

I can see so many ways a husband would be beneficial, but also ways that my life would change and be limited.

When I really think about it, it seems like the only reasons I have for wanting to get married are selfish ones, anyway.

Except one . . .the one where I become a better person, more capable of serving those around me and carrying out Your will on Earth.

Therefore, unless I meet someone who a) is clearly Yours, b) is madly in love with people and deeply desires to serve them, c) will spur me onto becoming a more obedient child of You, and d) is obviously the one I was made to be with, I will never marry.

It does sound selfish, but there are so many ladies out there who are just pining for a husband.  The hopelessly single men can go find them.  I think keeping me for myself for the sake of Your work is a perfectly justifiable reason to not get married.

I am not complete, but I'm on my way (with Your help) and I don't think I'll find that completion in a husband.  I know I'm a special, unique individual who is Your child.  I am loved and accepted by You.  I don't care what society thinks, I'm not going to get married just for the sake of getting married.

A little voice inside me cries out in terror, shrieking at the thought of a lifetime of singleness.

But I quiet that voice, and I tell it that nothing is more important to me than You.

I Cor. 7:8,32,38,40

Besides, I will marry You someday (Rev. 19:7).